Post by ZenShi on Nov 1, 2006 16:15:56 GMT 7
Zen's First Love
All along, i was schooling in a non-coed environment and thus i wasn't so fortunate to mix around with the opposite gender. So here it goes :
I was fifteen, a Npcc cadet holding a good record, also a probational counsellor, a Squash captain as well as the House captain.....when i first met "her".
All the cadets are to attend a camp at Pulau Ubin during secondary 3 in order to attain a well-certified badge. My school was under Area 1 that consists of 3 non-coed and 2 other "ulu" schools. Particulary, she was from a girls' school.
At the night of the campfire, i was gathering some gallons of water to set it ready for the evening like the few of other cadets when i noticed a girl was lying helplessly at the sick bay. And everytime i pass by the sick bay, i will not hesitate to face her direction and check on her until an officer approached me and asked if i can look after her while the rest of them work on the preparation. Netherless to say, i agree.
During that time, our camp is few feet away from the coast of the sea and inevitable coldness struck keep everyone down, much more to think how much it will affect her, prudence prevails. She was shivering then and without hesitation, i took off my wind-breaker and put it over her body in comfort. Even so, it did not help. I didn't know what to do but luckily, i saw a floormat nearby and add on another layer on top of her. For a moment, i watch her finally able to settle down with the right body climate and only to notice my teeth was chattering like that of a timid mouse. I realised i was freezing in cold but stay by her side to watch her sleep at ease. In the end, i miss the good time at the camp fire but who cares, ha !
The next day, it was time for everyone to part from the camp. I had a mixture of feeling at that point of time, both happiness and sadness. I kept asking myself "why must the good time end so soon, isnt there any grace period to spare". For once, i thought i ought to left "her" as part of my memory.
So, we sat the bumpy boat and got our feet back on mainland. I was just about to leave with my friends and head for the cafeteria when someone called out my name. I thought for once that my name is sort of common when i realised it was "her".
She had came to thank me in return and ask for my "email" so as to buy me a meal "one day". NO NEED TO GUESS, i gave, ha !
We had a few chat, went out for a few times before we got together. At the frenzied pace of modern living, we have forgotten yet the simplest form of pleasure having a relationship and only wished time was fast forward for us to get married. Till one day..
When i was awoken by the message tone, stating she had ask for a break-up. I was alike that character of "Jay Zhou" and based on my nature introvert-self, i did not persist in demanding for a reason..
i respect her decision and replied .. with an agreement .. in despair ..
Till today, i wouldnt have a proper answer of how my first relationship failed as it has ended abruptly. But the good thing is, we're still friends who kept in touch.
Perhaps, this ending is the best for us..many peeps think i'm silly for not asking for the reason of the cause but to me, the beautiful memory that we once hold is all it matters..
The story of my own . .
[ Im the originator of the above story, typed myself and based on my own factual account ]
- zen was here -
All along, i was schooling in a non-coed environment and thus i wasn't so fortunate to mix around with the opposite gender. So here it goes :
I was fifteen, a Npcc cadet holding a good record, also a probational counsellor, a Squash captain as well as the House captain.....when i first met "her".
All the cadets are to attend a camp at Pulau Ubin during secondary 3 in order to attain a well-certified badge. My school was under Area 1 that consists of 3 non-coed and 2 other "ulu" schools. Particulary, she was from a girls' school.
At the night of the campfire, i was gathering some gallons of water to set it ready for the evening like the few of other cadets when i noticed a girl was lying helplessly at the sick bay. And everytime i pass by the sick bay, i will not hesitate to face her direction and check on her until an officer approached me and asked if i can look after her while the rest of them work on the preparation. Netherless to say, i agree.
During that time, our camp is few feet away from the coast of the sea and inevitable coldness struck keep everyone down, much more to think how much it will affect her, prudence prevails. She was shivering then and without hesitation, i took off my wind-breaker and put it over her body in comfort. Even so, it did not help. I didn't know what to do but luckily, i saw a floormat nearby and add on another layer on top of her. For a moment, i watch her finally able to settle down with the right body climate and only to notice my teeth was chattering like that of a timid mouse. I realised i was freezing in cold but stay by her side to watch her sleep at ease. In the end, i miss the good time at the camp fire but who cares, ha !
The next day, it was time for everyone to part from the camp. I had a mixture of feeling at that point of time, both happiness and sadness. I kept asking myself "why must the good time end so soon, isnt there any grace period to spare". For once, i thought i ought to left "her" as part of my memory.
So, we sat the bumpy boat and got our feet back on mainland. I was just about to leave with my friends and head for the cafeteria when someone called out my name. I thought for once that my name is sort of common when i realised it was "her".
She had came to thank me in return and ask for my "email" so as to buy me a meal "one day". NO NEED TO GUESS, i gave, ha !
We had a few chat, went out for a few times before we got together. At the frenzied pace of modern living, we have forgotten yet the simplest form of pleasure having a relationship and only wished time was fast forward for us to get married. Till one day..
When i was awoken by the message tone, stating she had ask for a break-up. I was alike that character of "Jay Zhou" and based on my nature introvert-self, i did not persist in demanding for a reason..
i respect her decision and replied .. with an agreement .. in despair ..
Till today, i wouldnt have a proper answer of how my first relationship failed as it has ended abruptly. But the good thing is, we're still friends who kept in touch.
Perhaps, this ending is the best for us..many peeps think i'm silly for not asking for the reason of the cause but to me, the beautiful memory that we once hold is all it matters..
The story of my own . .
[ Im the originator of the above story, typed myself and based on my own factual account ]
- zen was here -